A New Me, A New Life

life. quitting. trying to make everyone happy. everything. i just wish that there was something that could make me hold on for one more day....everyday. i gave in last wednesday, on day 10. then on friday. day 12. and yesterday, and today. and it makes me sick. they say to remember what made you start again, and find something to do in case that happens again. but its always something that only happens once. you know, you only lose your grandpa once. i'll only fight with this kid once, becau… Continue

proud to say that as of march 9, 2009, i have become an ex-smoker. today is a week. and i feel really good. =)

for the 3rd time. lets see if i can actually do it this time. =)

alright. sooo today is day 5. and im realllly feeling buying a pack of smokes. i mean to a point where im just thinking 'fuck this quit smoking thing, no one in my family really even supports me. none of them actually even give a shit, so whats the point?' at the same time im thinking, yeahhh i have slipped two days out of the 5, but i still want to quit. i want to prove to every single fucking one of them that i can do this. because i am tired of always being the one that never fucking did a… Continue

well. today is the end of day two. i am proud to say that i made it through, even with all of the damn stress i went through at work. i only hope that i can keep this going on. i made the promise to my dad that i would quit yesterday was his brithday. yesterday was my quit day. what a great birthday gift right? so, not much to say here. obama is the new pres. dont know how im feelin bout that just yet. a little scared. but i can only hope that he does well. back to no smoking: i find that i… Continue