CONTROL AND CONQUER!!!!

Went to a party last night. Was really worried about keeping the quit. My good friend was gonna be there and we would always go out and sneak a butt. It was something we always looked forward to. The time came when she asked do you want to go out. I went but guess what???? Didn't have the butt, didn't even want it. Just told her I was done. I chose to no longer smoke and it felt sooooo good. Convincing my husband was another thing. He's heard that story before and has kind of lost faith. I never… Continue

This is not where I want to be but know I have to be here. Started my quit over the holidays last year. Had tons of support and encouragement from my dear friends here. Got very comfortable with the quit and left. Life went on and little crises popped up and found myself turning to my dirty secret to get me through. Couldn't talk to anyone about it because absolutely no one knew I was doing it. I have closet smoking down to an art!! I continued the see saw for quite some time. Still considered m… Continue

Thank you everyone for making this my best 29th birthday ever and most of all

I was so close. I guess I just had a bad day. There are health issues, my doctor has my thyroid soooo screwed up, my son upset me and I've just been down. Thought I could buy a pack just to have my security blanket. Drove into the mini-mark, got out, walked up to the door and stopped. The only thing that kept me on the outside was having to start all over. I knew deep in heart that that one pack would lead to another and I would be back to where I started. Don't want to go through that again so… Continue

1st day: I have been challenged out of anger from a dear friend who said I didn't want to quit. He was right and that made me mad. I have now set out to prove him and myself that that is wrong. I want to quit but the demons of addiction have always held me back from the truth. So I am energized to be successful. It's Christmas Eve what better time. My gift to me. Today wasn't too bad. Had work and things to do to get ready for the holiday. Weather was miserable so there was no opportunity to sne… Continue