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Donna 37, Female
Pittsburgh
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Started this discussion. Last reply by Miss Vaun Dec. 2, 2008.

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I have been married to an exceptional man named Todd for 2 1/2 years and we have a beautiful 16 month old daughter named Olivia. She is the love of our lives! My husband and I both smoked. He and I quit back in October. I chose Chantix for this quit and did quite well. He quit cold turkey. He is very strong minded and able to set his mind to things and do them with no problem. I always seem to need more help. However, he went out of town for two weeks and I started back up again. I hated sneaking around and I told him about it while he was out of town and he was furious! I hated keeping it a secret from him so I wanted to be honest. It's just like any other addiction! I have to be honest with myself and with everyone else! I quit before for my health and for my family. My daughter is the most important thing in my life and I want to be here for her and for my husband. I don't want to smell like an ashtray and I don't want her to see me smoking. I also have 10 nieces and nephews and they don't need to see that either! I felt great when I wasn't smoking. I saved so much money and I could breathe! I feel like crap all over again! I quit cold turkey before and I know I can do it again. I don't have the money to purchase any stop smoking aids (gas prices, etc.....) this time around, so I'm determined to do the cold turkey thing this time. I have a wonderful support system at work. My only downfall is that my husband doesn't quite know how bad the problem really is. When I told him that I was smoking again, he got so mad that all he did was berate me and yell at me and didn't quite understand MY side. I know that sounds like the "addiction" talking.... but I know what I need emotionally from him to quit. I need a different type of support from him, not him yelling at me. I don't want him to tell me it's okay. But I don't want him yelling at me either. That's why I'm not telling him so much about my problem. It's almost like everyone else knows but him.
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Day 4

I'm actually going to consider this Day 1. AGAIN!!!! I'm using the gum. Faithfully. However, when I'm at work my will power is out the window! I'm not even stressed out! Yeah, work sucks, but whose doesn't? I'm not having a bad day. I'm not upset about anything in particular. Nothing is bothering me. I feel good. So why am I weak? Why does the will power seem to not exist for me? Does nicotine really have that big a hold on me? I have my gum sitting right next to me, but the girl that sits right… Continue

Posted on October 24, 2008 at 8:49am — 1 Comment

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Day 2

I guess I consider this day 2. I quit on Monday and it's now Wednesday. Even though I consider my husband quite unsupportive, he's being pretty cool right now. That's because I'm being successfull. I like the fact that I can breathe right now; that I'm not coughing up a lung and little bits of nastiness that I'd rather not discuss. I don't have to worry about going outside and having my daughter watching me light up. I don't have to spend the money on cigarettes (that I don't have the money to s… Continue

Posted on October 22, 2008 at 9:07am — 1 Comment

Donna

I'm Back....

Well, I definitely have relapsed and now I'm back. I hate having to admit to a relapse, but I have to do that and be honest with myself. I'm back here and I'm in need of MAJOR support!!!!! Because LORD KNOWS I don't get it from my husband. He's the WORST ex smoker in th world and offers very little support. Just nagging and the "we'll see" attitude. I want to do this so bad. For myself, for my daughter, for so many reasons, but I want this! I hate smoking anymore! I hate…
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Posted on October 20, 2008 at 8:56am — 4 Comments

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Gotta love him!!!!

So, I love my husband dearly, but he's the WORST reformed smoker I've ever met!!! When you are a fresh ex-smoker who is badly in need of support from your husband, the last thing you need is the nagging and bitterness of the REFORMED EX SMOKER! You know, the one who is holier than thou! Can do no wrong! Uuuuugggghhhhh!!!!!! Drives me crazy!!!!!!

Posted on July 7, 2008 at 8:48am — 2 Comments

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Quit date set!

Okay, it's done.... I've set the date for June 15th! Father's Day. My husband hates the fact that I've started smoking again. He and I both quit but I started again and I am on this journey once again. I chose this date as a committment to myself to get this monkey off my back once and for all! For my health, for my daughter, for my husband... for so many reasons! I can't count them all! I hate the fact that I've started again. I remember how great I felt when I wasn't smoking. Where I work,…

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Posted on June 6, 2008 at 9:53am — 1 Comment

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At 11:35am on November 19, 2008, Melissa said…
I was wondering how you are doing? Have you been able to quit yet? I know it is hard, but if you want it, you will get it. Smoking is a choice. Choose not to smoke. Please look at the smokes and tell them you hate them. Let them know you are not ready to die.
At 11:36am on October 22, 2008, Robin said…
Your daughter is so cute and I love her name. If she is not a reason to quit and stay quit then I don't know what is. I have a grand daughter that is 16 months old, her name is Rebecca. She is the little one on the left side of the picture. The other one is her sister and her name is Maryann, she is 2 1/2 years old.

Have a wonderful!!!
Robin
 
 

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