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Well, it has been awhile since i have been on here.....i forget even the last time. I did get emails saying i had new comments, but i couldnt face it. I lost it about 3 weeks ago on day 105. I had been having major problems with my blood pressure, and major swelling in my hands and feet....something i have never, ever had. On that day , i work in a nursing home as a LPN and all the staff were brought to the dining room for an important announcement. One of my fellow nurses had committed s…

Well, the lung doctor said that i need to stop the chantix. So, this is my second day without it, and strangely i do feel better. I am not thinking about cigarettes nearly as much, and it has been pretty good. Chantix was causing a lot of anxiety for me. So, we will see...

Well, it has been a very long road. And it has not been an easy one, i would be lying if i said that it was. The first day was the hardest, the first month was the easiest.

In the first month i was reaping the benefits of my smoking cessation. I could finally breathe. It had indeed been a long time since i could take a very deep breath. When i smoked i had to use my rescue inhaler at least 3 times a day, just to open my bronchioles so that i could breathe.(and thus smoke some more ciga…

Well, it has now been 60 days, and i feel much better than a few days ago. I guess i had been trying to wean myself off of the chantix too early. That was definitely not a good idea, as i had cravings that lasted allllll day, and i began to think that i was nuts. So, anyways, went out for a few drinks last night. And i had been very nervous about doing this, as i knew that i would want a cigarette. I actually thought that it would overpower me and i would not be able to do it. But that didnt…

Well, today is better than yesterday. I just keep thinking that at day 52, i should not be thinking about cigarettes all the time., and i am. I dont know why, I am on Chantix, so you would think that would cut down on that. But its almost like i am obsessed with cigarettes. I havent acted on it. Although yesterday was pretty close. I just dont know how to stop my mind from thinking that i am missing something.....