You are the heir to your actions.

But I'm still truckin'. Actually, I was cruisin'. To Bermuda. And it was lovely. I don't know if I can describe what I saw on the cruise as it pertains to smoking. The feelings that I got about the smoking. They were sort of fleeting, but I felt a sense of satisfaction that I wasn't smoking. There was a section of the buffet area that had ashtrays on it, and I usually wound up sitting over there often because it was easier to find seats. But being around the smoke didn't bother me at all. I act… Continue

So there's a guy at my work, and he makes me SO MAD!!! We're doing this project that, honestly, should be done by temps, but they probably wouldn't allow that due to security. It's really basic file upkeep. Anyway, he has been the go-between for us and our boss, who doesn't like to meet with us for some reason, and he SUCKS at it. He told us that we would get overtime to do this project after work. But he hasn't told us what we're going to get paid, how long the project would go, how many days a… Continue

I don't know why. I feel like something's missing, but it's not a crave. I'm just sorta bored. And I'm watching Top Chef, so it's a little strange to be bored when I'm watching such fabulous TV! =) Does anyone watch Malcolm in the Middle? There's the episode where Dewey has the chicken pox, and he screams, "I'M BORRRRED!" Then Lois says, "I thought we agreed we would use our not-horrible voice." That show cracks me up. It's one of my favorites. Anyway, I feel like Dewey right now. I'm doing we… Continue

I hate the weekends. I hate being at my apartment. I hate long holidays. Every weekend, it seems, I'm blogging about how lonely or depressed I am, or thinking about blogging about how lonely and depressed I am. Maybe during the week, when I'm working, I don't have time to feel this way. I'm just so dissatisfied with my life right now. I want to make changes, but they take time, and in the meantime, I'm miserable. And then it becomes cyclical. I'm still taking this crap with my friends very pe… Continue

Today, I felt something I hadn't felt in quite awhile, and it wasn't pleasant... IT WAS PHYSICAL WITHDRAWAL!!! And everything came roaring back. Omigosh, this crazy situation with my circle is happening. So, I'll wait for husband to leave...do I really have to wait 45 whole minutes? Then I can walk to the convenience store. Just one pack. Maybe I pitch it out before he even gets home. What's the harm? Fortunately, I'm a little more prepared than I was the other 200 times I've tried to quit. I… Continue