Amanda's Page

Hello Hello...still alive and kickin' over here. Only have a few minutes between one job and next but just enough time to jump on and say that things are going...okay. Went to my first prenatal check-up yesterday and I have a very healthy (so it would seem) nine week old baby growing in my tummy. So the doc moved my due date from April 25 to May 2 since I am not quite as far along as they thought. (Then again that's what they thought with my other 2 babies too just because I am a very small woma… Continue

I know I have not been around as much lately and I don't want anyone to worry about me. Still quit..no slips yet and don't think I'll have one, at least, not during the pregnancy. I am mostly worried about after the baby is born but hopefully it will have become easier for me by then. I still think about smoking every day. I still WANT to smoke everyday, Dream about it at night. Seems like there is no peace from this demon in my life. However, I just ignore and pretend that it doesn't bother me.… Continue

Thanks to all of you for your wonderful advice. I can't say I will 'take' any of it and I am sorry for that. But it is all wise things that I need to hear. The fact is however, that no-one is in my shoes so no-one can COMPLETELY understand my unique situation. But just having the love and support of my friends here is a huge help for me and lifts a very big burden off my shoulders. It means there are people who care and places to go to get help. I truely adore all of you and words can never say… Continue

There are a couple of things I will be addressing in this blog so bear with me people. I'll start with the first which would be I DO NOT SMOKE POT. Just wanted to make sure that was clear to EVERYONE. I don't partake in any recreational drugs of any sort and don't even like taking over the counter medications or prescriptions unless i ABSOLUTELY have to. I have no problem with people who DO smoke pot...just not for me is all. To each his own. I am REALLY started to get MAJORILY aggrivated with E… Continue

I will be starting a second job this Monday and I think I might be crazy. The 30 hrs a week I work at my current job is already TOTALLY draining me...since the pregnancy that is. It is UNBELIEVEABLE how much energy it takes to grow a human...I'm exhausted! LOL! But unfortunately I am just not able to make ends meet so a second job became a necessity not an option. I didn't think about smoking AS much today. I spent all morning running errands with my boyfriend so granted I have to 'think' about… Continue