Closet smoker and feeling bad

[roxanne]

HELP...I am a closet smoker too. I hide my smoking from my husband, friends, co workers and most relatives.....I feel so bad and ashamed of myself for this. No, I HATE the fact that I am lying to them, but most of all myself. Does anyone else feel this way??? I truly want to quit smoking in the worst way...I'm pretty sure at least....but I keep going back to it....and then the guilt again. I really SHOULD quit because I've already had 1 heart problem and I don't want another one...Any ideas, thoughts, suggestions from you folks??? I figured you'd be the group to talk to about this since we all seem to be fellow "liers" LOL.

[IRONHEAD]

Hi Roxanne,
I quit 5 weeks ago. I, too, was a liar. I hid my smoking for 7 years. It got to be morre habitual than lying. Part of my everyday life. I stopped feeling guilty along time ago. Didn't smoke much. maybe 1 pack a week and only in my car. I just decided one day to stop. The first 4 weeks was pretty easy but the past few days has been real tough. I'm sure it will pass. I'll just go to the gym earlier and stay a bit longer. I wasn't really worried about being "found out" because I'm a grown man and I pay taxes. If I wanted to smoke, I would. And that's my point...YOU have to make up YOUR mind that YOU don't want to smoke anymore for only one reason!!!! YOU DON"T WANT TO! Without that committment inside of you, you never will. Trying to scare yourself ... won't work, feeling guilty ...won't work...maybe for a day or two, but you'll be right back at it in a few days.....It's a selfish thing here! You do it because you want to. PERIOD!

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